Back in to see Mal again. He was in a very low dip, maybe the adrenaline from the last few days has gone. He just wanted to sleep with me holding his hand. The ward was busy again, they seem such dedicated staff, backwards and forwards all the time to the 6 men in their part of the ward. The doctor came again when I was there and said the creatinine levels had dropped more so he was very pleased but a long way to go. They had taken his drip out but just after I left Mal text to say they had put it back on again.
I also tried to cancel our holiday, Madeira in October for our silver wedding but trying to do it on the website is horrendous with the chat bot that continually repeats the same questions. In fact I was so frustrated with not being able to do something I presumed to be simple. I just sat and cried. My phone went off and it was my friend Pam, who asked how I was and said obviously “having a moment”. How spooky is it that she rang when I was crying. I think it was the last few days added together and she told me to leave it for another day, which I did. I felt better after she calmed me down. I can honestly say after giving up smoking years and years ago, I really felt like a cigarette BUT resisted. Later in the evening I had a gin and tonic.
I also miss Ellie being here and as Lou and Rhys have invited me over for Sunday roast on Sunday evening I have decided to bring her back then. I am sure she will prefer me being away a time while I visit Mal rather than not being home.
Also my repaired phone isn’t quite what it should be, flashes on and off if I am trying to end a call for instance. I’ll have to take that back.